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heartache to heartache we stand...love is a battlefield.

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 00:03:46 GMT

f i r s t s
First best friend: John, in preschool in Greensboro
First car: Ha! I can only wish…
First real kiss: Paul. Not Haskins or anyone you know.
First break-up: Same Paul.
First screen name: dreamerloser or something to that effect…
First self purchased album: Spice Girls
First funeral: Amy’s fathers, and it was a memorial service because he dedicated his body to science
First pets: Bubba but I’m pretty sure I didn’t like him
First piercing/tattoo: None.
First credit card: I will never have one
First true love: None
First enemy: Some chick in 1st grade who’d constantly call me fat. But it’s ok because she got held back that year. Payback kills, my friends.
First big trip: New Orleans or Sarasota/Punta Gorda. I’ve been going there all my life.
First music: In my house? Oldies.

l a s t s
Last car ride: Well, I drove to Hollywood Video (the new one…it’s pretty cool) yesterday
Last kiss: 3 years ago. Yeah, I know…
Last good cry: 5th gradeish?
Last library book checked out: “the Joy Luck Club” (for school)
Last movie seen: Harry Potter 3. Patrick’s fault.
Last beverage drank: Water, since it’s all I drink now.
Last food consumed: Bread.
Last crush: Major one? Matt.
Last phone call: Probably my fajah.
Last time showered: yesterday
Last shoes worn: My brown clogs, as usual.
Last item bought: Bottle of water
Last annoyance: Mother and how she takes sooo long to no avail
Last time wanting to die: 8th grade
Last time scolded: current

r e l a t i o n s h i p s
Who are your best friends? “Best friends”? Thanks to a resolution I have none, but close ones are: Josh, Shelby, Susan, Kate and Carrie
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? I can only wish

f a s h i o n | s t u f f
Where is your favorite place to shop? Should I have money, online. Should I not, the Dollar Store. You never know what you’re gonna find in there, man.
Any tattoos or piercings? Nope.

s p e c i f i c s
Do you do drugs? No.
What kind of shampoo do you use? Something apple.
What are you most scared of? Being alone. Ironic, huh?
What are you listening to right now? The TV my mom’s watching
Where do you want to get married? small church, minimal attendance.
What would you change about yourself? Body, no question. But I’m working on it.

f a v o u r i t e s
Color: Green and purple.
Food: So many. Strawberries maybe? Spaghetti? Bread?
Boys' names: James, Thomas, Charlie, Aaron…to name a very few, there are lots more
Girls' names: Elizabeth, Ava…much more too
Subjects in school: English, History and Chemistry. Art if I took it.
Animals: Dogs.
Sports: To watch? Football, rugby and soccer. To play? None.
Perfume: Too smelly.
Cologne: It’s never worn correctly, so none.

h a v e | y o u | e v e r
Given anyone a bath? Only babies.
Smoked? No.
Bungee jumped? No. Afraid of heights.
Made yourself throw up? No.
Skinny dipped? No.
Been in love? No.
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? I don’t exactly know how to cry, much less on command.
Pictured your crush naked? Duh.
Actually seen your crush naked? Negatory.
Cried when someone died? Not that I can remember, but I’m sure I did...
Lied? Of course.
Fallen for your best friend? Not really.
Been rejected? Definitely.
Rejected someone? Unfortunately, but I felt so bad it took me forever. Only 3 people though. 2 were stalkers.
Used someone? I would think so.
Done something you regret? No, but regretted something, yes. There is a difference.

c u r r e n t
Clothes: I <3 NY sweatshirt, sledding dog pajama pants and underwear.
Music: In my head? “Love is a Battlefield”
Make-up: Don’t wear it.
Annoyance: Tense Back. No one gives me massages because they’re bums.
Smell: Coffee. Hate the taste though. Starbucks hot chocolate all the way.
Favorite artist: Degas
Desktop picture: A da Vinci painting
Book your reading: “the da Vinci Code” oddly enough (again), “the Joy Luck Club” and “Oedipus Rex” because I never finished it.
CD in player: Phantom Planet and t.A.t.U.
DVD in player: Harry Potter 3
Color of toenails: Pearl-esque

l a s t | p e r s o n
You touched: Chelsea most likey
Hugged: one of the HHHL
You IMed: Chelsey
You kissed: It was 3 years ago. Drop it.

a r e | y o u
Understanding: I hope so.
Open-minded: Yes.
Arrogant: Often times.
Insecure: Totally.
Interesting: Not really.
Hungry: Nope. It’s Thanksgiving, how could I be?
Smart: Enough so to get by.
Moody: Hm. I don’t know.
Hardworking: When it’s something I want or hard labor.
Organized: Skittles-wise.
Healthy: My doctor told me yes last time I visited, but personally I think 70 lbs. overweight isn’t healthy.
Shy: Depends. Not the diapers.
Attractive: No.
Bored easily: No.
Responsible: Yesish.
Obsessed: With some select things, yes.
Angry: No.
Sad: Sometimes.
Disappointed: Rarely.
Happy: Sometimes.
Hyper: Rarely.
Trusting: No.
Talkative: Haha yeah.
Legal: No.

w h o | d o | y o u | w a n n a
kill: No one.
Slap: Honestly? My mother sometimes.
Get high with: the HHHL, if anyone.
Look like: Myself, only minus extra weight.
Talk to offline: Latin crew, Carmon, Kathleen and HHHL
Talk to online: Smurfy maybe? He never talks to me. My old friends.

r a n d o m
In the morning I am: Dead tired. And Oogly.
All I need is: Nothing. I have everything I need.
Love is: unattainable.
I dream about: love…and perfection.

w h i c h | i s | b e t t e r
Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi, baby.
Flowers or candy: Flowers.
Tall or short: Tall.

r a n d o m
What you notice first: Hair color. I’m a fan of brown hair.
Last person you danced with: Ziggy.
Worst question to ask: Why do they like you?
Who makes you laugh the most? Sam, Patrick, Susan
Who makes you smile? Carmon
Who gives you a funny feeling when you see them? Karen.
Who do you have a crush on? A few people, nothing major.
Who has a crush on you? That guy living in Antarctica. Oh, wait…he doesn’t know me. Damn.

d o | y o u | e v e r
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: No.
Save conversations: Yes, when they have meaning.
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: When I was younger…I was kind of a tomboy.
Wish you were younger: No.
Cry because someone said something to you: Only when it comes to mi madre.

n u m b e r
Of times I have had my heart broken: Several, only once by romance.
Of hearts I have broken: None.
Of guys I’ve kissed: 3?
Of girls I’ve kissed: None.
Of continents I have lived in: Just the one.
Of tight friends: 6
Of CDs I own: 60-80
Of scars on body: Lots…I’m a clumsy/formerly self-destructive person.

waive

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 19:44:09 GMT

I went to see Harvey on Thursday and let me say how much it ROCKED. It was sooo much better than I thought it would be. Of course that's not to say I thought it would suck, it was just that damn good. Smurfy, Pieter and Monk were all fabulous and Kate's bit as an old lady in the 1st scene made me laugh. I told everyone I saw what an awesome job they did, even if I didn't know them. After all, they were awesome. Haha, Sarah's dress rocked, as well as her acting. I could keep raving, but I think you get the idea. Maybe I'll go again tonight to see everyone in it again. Anyway, to all who read this, GOOD JOB.

Lately, I've come to regret not talking to some of my old friends as much as I used to, but still their drama is too much for me. So much happens in such a short amount of time and frankyl I don't want to keep up. Maybe I'll start befriending them again though. I don't know, I just need something to do and I used to love those guys despite their trouble.

Well, now I'm going to go dance and sing around my house since it is once again empty. I can't wait for a place of my own where I can do that all the time. Haha. It'd have to be in the middle of no where though so that no one could call the cops on my bad voice...

Oh yeah, and Dan comes back from Haiti today. Andmy grandomther gets out the hospital. She just had surgery to get cancer out of her colon, but she swears she's doing great. I didn't really tell my friends about either of those things, but oh well. I don't really want Dan back, to be honest. It just gives my mom one more thing to stress about and with him gone I got to drive alone once, from Lewisville to the house. *smiles* I even sang in the car. Plus, she actually played Taboo with me and Patch and I have a suspicion that she is actually at the grocery store with a list of stuff I need. It's a first. We even watched "Life As A House" together and Patch dissed Bush in front of her.

Now back to the singing and dancing, while I still have it. Hey at least I can hold a straight arabesk or whatever for a few seconds now. Hehe.

I shall no longer depend on thee

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 18:14:54 GMT

No longer will my hopes be dashed by Carrie Miller. Nope, no longer. She has forsaken me for the last time. I know she will want to write a defensive rebuttal telling her sad version, but all I wanted of her was this: a Latin book and 2 binders. Is that so much to ask? I wasn't even asking her to bring them to me! No, in stead, to make it more convenient for her, I said I'd pick them up at her house on the next day. I knew she was staying after school for tech crew, so I called her up and asked to please take home a few of my books because I had things that needed to be done. Sure, she said, no problem. Wrong. When I called today to ask if me swinging by around 2 to get my things was alright, I found that not only had she not gotten them at all, she wasn't even at her house. She was in Greensboro.

I am not mad about this, despite what it may sound like, but I am disappointed. I would bend my back frontwards and backwards for her and all the hip hip hip ladies. But then it occured to me that they would probably not do the same for me. And another realization followed: I've become too attached. One day, my best friends are going to ditch me and because I love them so damn much I'm going to end up being the one who's sorry. But no more. Today is the day I back off. I will not ask anymore favors or borrow money or ask anyone to the movies. No more.

When I realized this, I had one of my extremely rare 2-tear moments and that only served to solidify that I was too engrossed. I used to be able to go to the movies by myself, no problem. Maybe those days will return again. It just saddens me to think ... never mind. I still love you guys, I'll do anything for you no matter when or where, if possible, but today I stop asking the same of you.

fake childhood

Thu, 04 Nov 2004 23:16:12 GMT

Ok, so I just learned that I completely made up parts of my childhood. I could've sworn up and down that we had a train on a track going around our Chirstmas trees in G-boro, but it turns out I made that up. I've done this before, or forgotten entire parts of my life and it leaves me wondering: 1) do I block out or replace bad memories? or 2)is my imagination so strong that I couldn't tell the differnce between reality and ficition when I was little? consider this one before you answer (and do answer)...

partay....and then the consequences

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 20:42:12 GMT

Well, I think the party went over well. Everyone seemed to have fun and all the costumes were priceless (come on, Aaron as a metro? Austin as a ghettoguy? Carrie as a gypsy? Sarah as Kali? they were ALL so worth it...thanks for convincing me it had to be costume guys). Random events of the evening:

costume contest with 1)Sarah McManus 2)Kat 3)Sarah Sheppard and 1)Aaron 2)Zach and 3)Sam...

fake make-out session between Carrie and Sam (do I like him? no, people...please stop asking now)

singing at the top of our lungs to ...everything and doing that middle school madness grind circle

someone unsorting my candy...Sam kept on the entire night, which really kinda made me mad after a while

my mom seeing Walker and Kat making out on our couch...hehe great

I think that about covers it. I'm sorry that not everyone I invited showed up and about the Kyle allison incident, but it all turned out well. Too bad there's no more candy left (damn trick-or-treaters...)

dreams, pumpkins and lack of lemonade

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 18:08:16 GMT

Well, the past few days I have spent at my dad's because I just kinda felt like being disconnected. My plan worked, and now I have the entire weekend pretty much to myself as well. Dad and Patch are going to Midnight Madness at UNc tonight and then heading off to the beach tomorrow, so I'm spending most of my weekend at Karen's. Not a problem, I just hate to impose on her. At least Rachel won't be there, so I won't feel as bad.

Last night I had three dreams...all of which I am compelled to write down. First: Aaron, Carrie, Kate and Sam all came over to my mom's house. We all stayed on the driveway and Sam waundered off on his own...Kate followed him. Then Aaron got in his car (a green sedan parked in my garage...) with Carrie in the front seat and Kate behind her. Sam was still sniffing the roses...I got in my mom's car since I apparently had my license and Aaron backed out and drove to his house. I followed. Oh, right...and eventually Sam got in the car, next to Kate. So I followed the 4 of them down Styer's Ferry and Dull Road.

Second: this one's really bizarre. Well, the HHHL were in Pete's class again with Kumar and Aaron. We were giving all our friends gifts (think Kindergarten with Valentines...it was sort of required almost) and I handed all mine out but didn't get any. Then the room, which had been white and well-lit, turned brown and dark. Carrie and I were given a project for which we had to leave the classroom. We opened the door and realized that the entire universe was out there. Directly ahead, there was this door that let to everything beyond Earth. Immediately we went for it and landed ourselves in a place called Aracnid. We met the top leader, who basically looked like a black crab with 8 legs. (S)He told us that the apocalypse was coming soon, so we ran for the door, dropped our project off at Pete's room and ran back to see how we could stop it. Aracnid (the leader) led us to all these different worlds. I stopped at one of them and played this game exactly like boxing except much more fluid. I don't think I won but the people I fought against were very polite and gracious. So, having found nothing, we walked back towards the door. There Aracnid stopped Carrie and told her that (s)he could save her and to come back in a few minutes with everything she would need. Carrie and I left. She went to get her stuff, I returned to pete's room. I realized I still hadn't gotten any gifts and was pissed off. THE FUCKING UNIVERSE WAS ENDING. Kate kept asking "What's wrong, what's wrong???" and I threw a desk over. Kate kept on asking stupid questions after I told her what was going on until I finally explained that the world would be chaos when people found out. Unfortunately, while I told her this the order of the world was disinegrating behind me. I left the room because Kate was being dumb and Susan and Shelby were just staring at their desks, doing nothing, acting like they were ashamed of me and Kate. I walked over to India and there I found the same boxing gaem I had played earlier, except since someone had killed the Dali Llama I no longer got treated well. Two blonde guys tried to kill me, so I ran, I ran back to Pete's room. Once again I found no one in there I could relate to. So I tried to leave again but found Carrie in the door leading to the universe , waving good bye. Then I woke up.

Third: There was a runway in the shape of and Ethiopian cross, a model on each end. Then me and this guy I was with were thrown onto the runway. I was the only one left alive.

Ok, so I have a weekend with Karen to look forward to and I'm gonna go. I might even have to go to the Davie-West game and sit on the Davie side. Eck.

Oh, btw, feel FREE to interpret my dreams...they were all in the space of 6 hours and ...yeah interpret them.

1st date in 2 years and how'd it go? I'll tell you...

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 16:45:09 GMT

Well, last night was my date with David. It was fun, we spent like and hour and a half in the Halloween store. Then we met up with Rachael (not Brandon, he was grounded I think) for dinner. All in all it was fun...you can see some pictures under my new alias "detectivepow2" at picturetrail.

There was only one problem. Me. I was relieved to find that David was less nervous than usual, thanks to a word from Shelb I assume, but I don't know...he didn't give me that scared feeling or anything. I feel like shit because I got both my hopes and his up for a possible relationship but I can tell you now it's not gonna happen. I knew it wouldn't, but I, like Carrie or Kate, tried to convince myself of otherwise because one of my problems is that I never give relationships a chance. Now I remember why. Because they don't work unless you're frighteningly excited to see them at any chance, no matter if be that they pass you in the hall or if it's your first date. You have to want to wear make-up and ass-pants and charm them with your failing wit. I didn't have that with David and I regret that I gave either of us hope, especially him. I guess I'll just return to the rank of the no-Prospect ones, but hey that's ok. There's a whole year in front of me and until I start freaking out over a guy again I'm just gonna have to deal with having no Prospects. After all, I managed last year and the year before that.

ages and ages...

Sat, 28 Aug 2004 18:37:07 GMT

It seems like it's been ages since I last updated, and I would tell ya'll about everything, but 1) I'm too lazy and 2) I honestly don't remember most of it...

Anyway though, I'll tell you about yesterday. Shelby went home with me after school, and we stood there waiting for my mom to pick us up for 5 minutes until I decided to go make sure Carrie had Susan's portrait (I hope it looks better Sus, I tried). She then busted me out about having to make her wait...she really is the most impatient woman ever. Then we went home and talked to Carrie on the phone for about an hour before planning out the rest of high school (SO many APs...we're gonna die). Then we went and met David and Brandon at the mall at around 6:45. Like 5 minutes later we ran into Carmon and Sanders, Carmon kneed me in the face and we moved on...then we just went to random stores and played with gigantic picture phones haha and Zack Jason professed his love to me. Then we ate dinner at Subway (evidentially David's favorite place) and walked around some more. We tried to find the Halloween store and failed miserably. David got caught up with the "coolest salesperson ever" lol and Shelby and I had to leave so my mom wouldn't get mad again. Overall, David didn't really act like he likes me so I'm taking this as all crushes went away when he heard I hate Forest Gump the movie. Anyway, I got home, got online and talked to Walker and David for a while and then called Carrie to see how her night had gone. Man, I really wish I'd gone to that party for "moral support" so many hott guys showed up. Oh well, the mall was still fun. Ok, I've updated now and need to mow the lawn. Buenos dias then...

Info

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 00:02:34 GMT

I can't go in chat rooms anymore. Or IM. Or do any communication over AIM. So yeah, thought I'd let you guys know...if you have any suggestions, so far I still get e-mail. wannabeidealist@yahoo.com.

Oh and there's an HHHL night on Friday at my house if ya'll can make it...and come on Susan you know you're gonna come.

better day, thank goodness yaaa'lll

Wed, 11 Aug 2004 00:52:02 GMT

Today was much better homework-wise; there was only math to do.

I started the day off rocky because I 1) took a shower. In the morning. Bad. and 2) didn't go meet Griggs like he asked me to. I mean, I felt pretty scummy. And I told him some version of the truth...that I managed to get in the library and was scared to leave for fear of never returning. Really, I was just scared of him. I sort of got the impression that he might like me (Shelby said he asked if I had a boyfriend) but there's no way I could go out with him. Shelby was right; he basically is the perfect boyfriend...for the girl-next-door. As many of you know, I am not this person. I can be at times, but I'm just oo much of a bitch. I couldn't do that. Plus, I was prepared for the worst looks ever but that thought kinda scared me too. I just couldn't meet him without reinforcements (aka Shelby).

But besides feeling crummy at the thought of David Griggs, the day went well. English was awesome with it's Survivor (the Josh/Josh/Aaron/girl/girl group's "hut" continually cracks me up. I should've gotten a picture of IT, not mine), Latin was cool with it's Brian thing and 10-minute rant on Roman customs, and math was dull. I mean: DULL. BUt also kinda funny since I accidentally (It's true I swear) looked at a note Hannah Varnell wrote to Jill (a girl in my group) that said "Check out his ass" about Matt. Haha she has no chance. He's spoken more to the little Indian boy than her. I mean she's pretty and all but YOUNG. One advantage I have over all the pretty freshies. I AM OLD. Yay me. Besides, Carrie was right, Varnell the younger is very differetn form Varnell the elder.

Ok, that's all for now. Nighty night.

the 1st day of school...or is it the 80th?

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 23:00:50 GMT

Ok, so today was the supposed first day of school. But it didn't feel like it. At all. I mean the first day of school is supposed to be a cake, right? Wrong. Already I've done more work this year than last year. Not saying much, I know...but still ridiculous.

I saw Matt today and I must say, he did nothing for me. I don't think I care anymore. At least that's over. Now I just need to find a guy to fall madly and deeply in love with. It should be easy.

I really shouldn't be taking time out of homework, but I figure that I did the reading and handbook/definition thingings, so I deserve a break. And here it is. While no one's on. Oh well.

At least school's only got 179 days left, I have a semi-functional locker, I know people in most of my classes, no one's home, I'm not emotionally attached to any boy romantically and I'm halfway done with my homework. Those things are good. That's good. Good is good.

Sus' party and open house

Fri, 06 Aug 2004 17:06:15 GMT

Well, since most of the people that read this were at Susan's party, I'll just say that the album is up and I e-mailed the password to everyone. Kater evidentially didn't get it...oh well she will eventually.

After I left Susan's I had to go work for my mom (I hope I'm getting paid, man) and then went to open house. It was c-razy. The HHHL and I ran around everywhere (my parents figured out that they couldn't keep up and decided to leave), seeing old and new teachers and people we know and love. It was a good time had by all. Haha and I tried to show Shelby Ms. Maxey's math jokes, but Kathleen came by and I felt like I was in a million pieces and then Ms. Maxey tried to reassure me about Integrated 3 with all those Hanes freshies. They scare me...they're all so much smarter than me...oh well. But I was sadder than I imagined to learn that Shawn's not in my class, even if the twins are. I kinda even think that he might be a person I'll always have a thing for. And he and I kinda got to talk while I was waiting for my parents, but then green Sean came up and started talking about being a masseuse in Charlotte...who knows. Anyway, it was all fun and I'm anxious to get school started. I wonder who's in my homeroom...

strips and pics

Wed, 04 Aug 2004 16:44:03 GMT

OK, everyone should check out these 2 sites... Kate's comic strip www.stripcreator.com/comics/random_penname/0 my album www.picturetrail.com/detectivepow

tubing and stuff

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 23:48:36 GMT

Well Sunday I went to the lake with Kathleen and her 'rents...I met them at their church, Calvary. There I ran into Shep and Sanders. Shep and I compared schedules, Sanders made some crack about me doing drugs or something (I don't really know since I wasn't listening) and I sat through some Crazy Baptist going on about Bob Ross and CB lesbian sex; then it was over. Thank god (the only thought remotely religion-related that passed through my mind the entire time).

Once we got down there, we got immediately on the boat and did some stuff; I found out that my pale since glows in the lake. It was cool actually. Then we went tubing AND I might add that Kathleen didn't even bother to mention the 15 minutes I stayed on by myself. Shame on you, silly one. Then my parents called like 3 times before I got dropped off at Mom's for Dad to pick me up at at around 10.

Oh, and I've recently become obsessed with this musical called CAMP. It's sooo cool man, and the guy playing Vlad is hott. Just thought I'd let you guys know that since if Sus does have that party I might force you to watch it. I know, I'm awesome and you love me = ).

I don't know...I'll probably ramble...

Sun, 01 Aug 2004 02:11:21 GMT

Well, on Thursday at about 10:30ish, I suddenly decided to spend the night at Shelber's and came over. We had all sorts of funness and I'm very glad i got an inside peak at the life in casa de Currier. It was interesting, but fun, stuff. I hope to come back sometime...

After they dropped me off home (they all went to Carowinds), I went with my dad and Karen to pick Patrick up from Camp Hanes. He got the 5 year paddle, and I was SO proud.

When we got back into town, they dropped me off at Mel's part-ay. There wasn't nearly the crowd I was expecting, but that's ok. Chad was there though. Ugh. Let me say this for it however: I was ecsatic to see LeeAnn, Mel, Jacque, Walker, and yes, even Alex. We played hide-and-seek (LeeAnn and I just ate dinner while we were supposed to be counting), had a kind of lame truth-or-dare and told corny stories. I even told the story of Homecoming to Mel. I love that story. Mainly because it involves me for once...even if it didn't end up in a "hook-up". And I love the story of my first date too...but I won't bother ya'll with it.

Oh, and I promised that I'd start posting random stuff that guys should do for girls. My first lesson: Surprise serenade on special occasions. Ok, if you suck at singing, please don't bother, but get a band or something. Just a good band with a well-chosen song. For instance, in "Love Actually", the best friend of the groom arranged for "Love Love Love" by the Beatles to be sung by a choir and played by random instrument-wielding guests. It was great. In fact, future non-existant husband of mind should take note of this idea.

Anyway, Kate and Carrie are back from their adventures in Charleston...I thought they wouldn't be back until tomorrow...but it's good. Now they can share schedules = ).

Last thing: Tomorrow I go with Kathleen to church and their lake house. Fun Fun. I say that in the sincerest of senses. I love boating...

Schedule

Sat, 31 Jul 2004 23:04:09 GMT

1st semester

1: C&E -- Martin
2: Health -- Sheek
3: Enviro -- Reece
4: Chem -- Koeval
5: English -- Peterson
6: Latin 2 -- who else?
7: Integrated 3 -- Marshall? Who the fuck?

2nd semester

2: Dance -- Crater!

Shelby's HOTT house

Fri, 30 Jul 2004 04:04:35 GMT

WARNING:I'mn at Shelby's,so this might sound a little high...

Yeahso we're drawing all over her walls and Chelsea is trying to cover up Nan's bush, much to our disappointment. There's a huge evil dog and Ninja Turtle to scare Shelby when she sleeps...this is fun stuff man. I hope that whats-hr-name, the friend of karen's daughter's friend or Karen's daughter for that matter, read this. that would be bad. O dear there is trouble in wonderland...i must go.

friends

Thu, 29 Jul 2004 19:17:21 GMT

It's funny what summer does to friends. I mean, Kate and Carrie are now all buddy-buddy, while Shelby and I are like that and Susan's been gone forever. One reason that I can't wait for schedule's to get here is just to see my all friends again. In fact, we haven't all been together for months. I hope I get to see Sus soon...she's maybe the one person whom I haven't seen regularly and would have liked to. At least it was her birthday yesterday (happy birthday!!!) and I might have an excuse to hang out. I don't know...I'm thinking that I am going to invite myself over to Shelby's tomorrow night after her practice or something...and then Kathleen hangage outage on Sunday, the church bit should be interesting. We'll just have to wait and see I guess.

shelbers and the kathleen

Wed, 28 Jul 2004 20:31:37 GMT

imagine I'm talking fast like in one of those commercials detailing the social life of a teenage girl (you know what I'm talking about):

So I invited Shelby over to spend the night at my dad's, but she couldn't come until after field hockey practice, so my dad and I killed time at La Carreta. I saw Kurt there. Not that I know him, but I know of him. We didn't speak. Then we went to the mall to get me some new jeans since my old ones ripped. But I can't read directories so we wandered around for half an hour looking for the store and it was the last place we looked. Like always. Dad got Karen a shirt from Victoria's Secret. I found out he has an Angel's card...I guess there are more things I don't know about my dad. Then Kathleen called and we arranged to meet tomorrow and spoke for a few minutes. Finally made it to the store, but since we were kinda late, I just picked up a pair and got the wrong size. I guess I'll have to go back later. Then we went to Shelby's to pick her up. Her sister answered the door and I saw Nan's feet. Then we got in the car and went to Movie Gallery. I had a coupon and got my dad to pay for it. I love my dad. Then we went home and I showed her the grand tour. It was her first time over. Then we walked over to the school, saw a colony of frogs and swung on the swings. It was fun. We went back and watched an episode of Degrassi, my Canadian preteen soap. Then we watched Love Actually talking and eating all the while. Went to sleep. Woke up around 8ish and came to my mom's. We only got like 6 hours of sleep so I felt bad. Turned out my mom hadn't left yet and Dan was going with her. Shelby and I chilled on the couch and watched the Italian Job. Kathleen called again so I had to look up movie times. Mom and Dan left and took Shelby with them. I was sad, I hope she had a good time. Then I did nothing but computer crap for a few hours. At 4 Kathleen came and picked me up to see Bourne Supremacy. We both loved it. Matt Damon is hott. Then we went to dinner at TJ's and were banished from her parents' table. We didn't want to sit with them anyway. Then we went to the Carpenter's to pick up something and her parent's laughed at me. I guess I'm funny. Then we went to Borders and I bought this soundtrack I've been dying to have with a gift card. Sadly my song is revved up, not acoustic. Oh well, it's still good. Then we went to her house and found a rabbit lurking in her basement. I met Denali. Cute dog. We got online for a while, badgered Adam about masturbation, I talked in a Southern accent (good too), took some emode quizzes and listened to music. Then we couldn't decide what to do so we played poker. I won. Went to bed and woke up about noon. Had some breakfast, played more poker and went upstairs. Two games of air hockey and Clue and planning out Kathleen's high school career led to deciding I'd go to church with them on Sunday. I'm excited, but I have to wear a skirt. Darn. Maybe I'll just say fuck a lot since they're Baptist. I got a handy dandy map and then they brought me home. Here I am now. Ziggy's happy to see me.

Florida

Mon, 26 Jul 2004 18:54:35 GMT

Mom just asked me to go to Lakeland with her because Dan can't. 1) she's gone mad. 2) This week is full of prior engagements and 3) I'm going to have to turn her down because of them. I feel really bad that she'll be driving on her own, but I want and need to stay here. Oh god, I feel bad about this. Maybe she can find someone else to go with her...

the cell phone crisis, Davie county reeducation and my plans this week

Mon, 26 Jul 2004 14:38:14 GMT

Cell Phone Crisis:

You all know what my mother can be like. Well, Sunday morning she told me that she was pissed about having a sucky phone (which she picked out), had seen an ad in the paper for $20 off the price she paid (already with a 50% rebate) and was going to trade hers in for one like the kind I chose as well as trade in MINE for the kind she had. How does this make sense? It doesn't, but that's how she explained it...let me tell you, I was so mad. I mean I fucking paid for the thing and just happened to pick out one worth my money, so she was going to make me take it back against my will? No way. I told her this (using much more rational tones, I assure you) and she freaked out. She threw a hissy fit. Now, I've made it through quite a few of these but they always scare me. She starts beating on walls or the steering wheel, whatever she can manage, and screams as loud as possible. I won't go into major detail, but you get it. It's scary. Anyway, I finally managed to get a little bit of sanity through to her, I think allowing her to let me keep my phone. That I worked for. That I chose. And then she traded in hers for one just like mine, getting $30 back (yes, that's right, mine was cheaper and better too). So, the end of the crisis was over, but dragged up again twice by my father later that evening.

Davie County Reeducation:

One thing you learn from being around Mom a lot is to let things go, especially if they don't ruin your life, so I'd put the hissy fit into the past by about the time my dad picked me up for dinner at Karen's. Before I go on, let me just mention that Lori (the first chick I think I mentioned earlier) is definitely out of the picture. Not ready, it seems. Anyway, we went over to Karen's house while Rachel (daughter, our age) was there, as well as her friend Jessica. Just listening to the 2 of them talk is like being taught every single Davie teenager's name. Basically, I had nothing to say because I had no idea who they were talking about. I think they've determined that I'm some quiet (Ha! Quiet...) geek or something. I mean, hello, not me. Geek yes. Quiet no. (someone back me up here) Then Jessica's boyfriend, Alex, came over and after dinner took us (all the teens) to the video store to get a movie. They chose Ron White, hick comedian. Funny, just not something I would've paid for. Wait, we didn't pay. Never mind. All in all, I feel pretty out of place in Davie but that's ok, because they'd definitely feel out of place on the West scene, much less the seminar scene. Oh well, at least I'm busy this week...

My Plans This Week:

Today--mow the lawn, have Shelbers over to my fajas for the night

Tuesday--Bourne Supremacy?, Borders and sleepover with Kathleen...Mom and Dan leave for Lakeland, Susan comes back?

Wednesday--Susan's birthday

Thursday--no idea

Friday--pick up the Dweeb from Camp Hanes

Saturday--noda

Sunday--boating with Kathleen...Kate and Carrie get back

Now you are fully informed...

guess who works at Warthogs' games?

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 18:06:38 GMT

Last night Kathleen and I went to a Warthogs game and after about 5 minutes of being there, guess who we ran into. Yes, Matt. Not surprisingly my heart did the speedy-uppy thing, but it didn't last. He said hi, I waved and kept walking. I don't know why...I probably could've stopped to talk. Actually it was the only time that night besides the fireworks that he didn't have a full line of little kids waiting to pitch (he worked at the little blow-up deal where you can throw a ball at a fake hitter). Anyway, his brother was also working there but as the guy that has to keep kids off the grass and from hanging on the blue rail. It was actually kinda funny (we sat right above him) because A) the same kids kept coming back and B) about 3 preteen pop idol-wannabes hung around him half the night.

Then I of course dragged Kathleen to stand in front of Matt while the fireworks were going off, but to no avail. O well, now when I see him back at school I won't care nearly as much. At least the night served that purpose.

Alice goes to wonderland with a brand new cell phone

Fri, 23 Jul 2004 17:50:31 GMT

Mom was not happy about it, but I got that new picture phone yesterday. Tomorrow I have every intention of mowing the grass because I know I'll need the money for SOMETHING. It's too bad that I have to work for all the money I get, it'd be much easier if I didn't. Anyway, I had all of my phone book transfered into the new phone only to learn that none of them had speed-dials or voice recordings, so I had to delete them and start over. With 25 people and some of those having 2 or 3 numbers each, it's not been fun. At least I still have my old phone to refer to. O well, no complaints on my part...I'm in love with this phone. Mom's pissed that for $20 less I got a cooler phone (more options and interesting stuff, not to mention a better camera), but I'm glad I'm not on her end.

I called Dad last night to warn him not to let Patch delete my phonebook (I gave him the old phone because lately he's obsessed with the idea of having one. Mom won't pay for his service or let Dad, so he can't call anyone, but I thought he still might like it) and found that I had WOKEN HIM UP. How is this bad you ask? He's driving to see the Pointless One, that's why. Luckily he'd pulled over to sleep, because most of the time it's beddy bye at the wheel. I'm usually there to keep him awake, but not this time and Patrick doesn't know what could happen. It really scared me, and I hope he got there alright. *crosses fingers*

natick, land of the twinkie factory

Thu, 22 Jul 2004 15:48:05 GMT

Last night we went over to Karen's house for dinner and I got to get online for about an hour...let me tell you, I felt special. I could IM again! it was great, but I only got to talk to Shelby, Kathleen and Jessica. Sadness, but oh well.

My dad just reminded me that we are supposed to go visit the Pointless One this weekend, but I don't want to go. First, I don't want to miss out on extra money if mom needs me to work and then Kathleen invited me over sometime this weekend. Don't want to miss my first longer than 10 minute in the Huie household. Then I was reminded that Mom and Dan are going to Lakeland (FL) on Tuesday, so that's another week with my Dad (without Patrick because he's going to Camp Hanes), so maybe SOMEONE (Shelby? Kathleen?) can come over to see my room since Carrie and Kate will be in Charleston starting Saturday.

O dear, all the complicated thinking!

O-day (yes, it is what you think)

Mon, 19 Jul 2004 14:01:11 GMT

So yesterday Shelby and I hung out at the mall and came up with a FABULOUS idea: O-day. And yes, it is what you think. No plans will be reveiled, but I think you will all love it. No, ADORE it. We could even make it annual if you like it.

Small details:

1) We need a place to have a get together where no one will bother or interupt us. Josh will be the only male present (he was the inspiration and is the only boyfriend in our GE movie group).

2) Everyone will need to pay 1/7 of the bill. Shelby has BRILLIANTLY offered to spot the money for now. Many thanks to the PC. We'll let you know the damage before the O-day party.

3) I think it should be the Friday after school starts--that way we girls can sleepover (you'll want to I think...hehe), everyone can discuss the summer, catch up, etc and ya'll don't have to wait in suspense!

4) AHHHH!!! I'm SO pumped for this!

Ok, so now everyone knows. It's great, I promise.

Plus, the trip to the mall produced a hippie dress and sophisticated shirt for Shelbs.

O and I found that song that I've been looking for...well, at least who it's by. "Today is gonna be the day..." is by Oasis. wOoT.